See! That's Jesus!

I read a sharing from 《文桥》,（ a Christian bimonthly journal）this morning. 

Original text: 
“当那位在剧中饰演耶稣的队友走近时，一位天真的孩子带着些许羞涩，惊喜的告诉身边的友人：“Tengok， itu Yesus！”。当这位队友坐下时，小孩就迫不及待地扑到“耶稣”的怀包里，舒舒服服地笑着、靠着。...”

Translated text:
 {When the teammate that acted Jesus in the drama came near, a naive little kid saw him and told his friend shyly and surprisingly :" See, that's Jesus!" When the teammate sat down, the little kid can't wait and ran into his arm, lying and smiling in his arm comfortably.....}

When I read this, it surprised me. What ran into my mind is same with the author, when I see Jesus someday, will I tell the people around me about HIM? Will I run in to HIS arm joyfully or I will come to HIM with a guilty heart?    

Frankly, I never imagine that when I meet Him, I'll run into HIS arm and hug HIM. The image in my mind is when I see HIM, I'll only apologize and tell HIM:" Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I didnt do good enough. Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I didnt listen to You. Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I did so much things to break Your heart." 

Another thing that came into my mind is do I ready to meet HIM yet? We always think that we still have plenty of time until we meet HIM. So, we just slacking and not alert about the time. But we will never know the time. Only God knows the time. 

This sharing let me make a reflection and ponder about my life. I want to be His good disciple. And one day when I see HIM, I will run into HIS arm like a child. The child that He proud of!   

My Dream

Yesterday (I am not sure it is yesterday or this morning bcoz I've been stay awake for 2 nights ),

was my first time to think about giving up on psychology.

It is been almost 7 years I dreaming about psychology 

and now I am finally and officially a psychology student 

This is the beginning of my dream

The beginning that I prayed for years 

but in the 5th week of my first semester, I am already think to give up?

I was thinking if I don't choose psychology 

Maybe now I am carrying a backpack and ridding on the wind of freedom

traveling around the world

see, touch, listen, taste and feel things that I never try before

Maybe my notebooks will be filled by beautiful stories and beautiful names

and I start dreaming those stories will someday being published  

and definitely the story in my diary will totally different from now

and I will meet different people 

Be a world traveler Be a writer Be a counselor 

Those are my dreams

Maybe I never tell anyone about my dream to become a writer before

it is because I am not sure will I be one in the future 

But, yes. I love stories and I love writing 

I never give up my dream on writing when I chose to study psychology so I can be a counselor in the future,

I am just holding it and waiting for God to open a door for me 

and I am sure HE will 

Wondering if I like writing so much, why I chose psychology for my degree?

Actually I am not obsess about psychology and sometimes those theories seem funny to me.

But I do like psychology and I embrace psychology

I am pretty sure the path I am taking now has God's purpose in it

I decided to become a counselor when I was 13

my initial thinking was I want to help those people who has problem in their life

and after that, I realized that this dream is given by God

God has His purpose in my life

For so many years, I prayed for my dream come true 

I pray that God use me for His kingdom. 

And now, I am standing right at the starting point

There is no way that I will regret 

and I would never turn back

Although this semester is tough for me, 

the assignments stressed me 

when I saw all my classmate are dealing good with it and I can't

I felt sad, my confidence and faith is defeated.

I asked God, why it is so difficult? Y You arrange these obstacles for me?

and the answer I get is 

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.

And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.

But when you are tempted,He will also provide a way out

so that you can stand up under it"  (1 CORINTHIANS 10:13)

God loves me, always has, always will

So, I should not be afraid!

My dream is not about me. It is all about Jesus Christ

I want to use my whole life to glorify HIM!

I am sure I will be able to finish my psychology degree and even master because God is walking with me. 

 

 

    

THX Awards

1st of April is April fool 
but for Christian, it is Palm Sunday 
What is Palm Sunday? 
Palm Sunday is a Christian moveable feast that falls on Sunday before Easter
On 1st of April, 
our church had a THX Award (combine service) @ Taylor's Lake Side Campus
THX Award is an event that our church 
Huh?! THX Award? What is that?????

'The THX! Awards recognizes everyone who had a hand in serving and playing a part in a great year for Eaglepoint. We’ve stuck together and fought tooth and nail to make God’s name famous in our nation!  And we want you to know that your contributions have not fallen on deaf ears – God is pleased with us! Let’s rejoice together in all that we’ve accomplished in the year 2011!'

And there I go~

I got a prize!!!!

Yeah! A cup! 

Although it is a small gift 

 I felt really happy and this means a lot to me

This is an encouragement from God and church

It motivated me to continue serving 

 No matter where God wants me to go, I will go!

For HIS will, not mine.

Oppps~ It is written there "Karen Gan: 永远满满奖"

What a cute cup! My prize^^

Kiki and I "Grow in God together"

Why she takes so long?

Yesterday was my second time serving in Kidszone in our church. 
We threw them a party. 
When my "principal", Agape asked me what I can prepare for the kid's party 
Haha! I've no idea at all
And finally I bought 3 big packs  choco candy 
Other teachers prepared them the more proper food (sandwiches, breads )
Last month I was taking care of junior kids 
and yesterday I was taking care of senior kids 
Kids are cute! 
But I quite agree with a say that I heard from somewhere 
"When kids fall asleep, they are angels,
 When they are awake, they become devils"
haha! 
Okay I should not use "devil", they are naughty angels that full of energy.
I like to see how kids interact with other.
I totally agree that kids is blank paper, what you write on them will make who they are.
Junior kids and senior kids are totally different. 
Different level of naughty?! Haha!
When the service finish, the parents come and pick up their kids
The kids left one after another 
There was a pair of bother and sister started to worry 
The brother is 4 years old(I guess) and the sister is 3 years old (I think)
The brother kept mumbling 
:" where is my mummy?"
I answered:" Wait for awhile. She will come later."
"Why she takes so long?"
"Where is she?"
"Where is my mummy's handbag?"
I saw his worries. 
He scared he will be abandoned by his parents
He kept guessing :" Is it they go home to eat first?"
and suddenly, he seemed like he understood why his parents is not here yet.
He said:" Oh! I know! because I dont listen to them just now. So they left me here!" 
I felt sad when I heard this. 
A 4 years old kid, worrying he will be left. 
He was scare, he felt insecure.
But we adults know their parents won't leave them. 
And I thought of myself. 
"Where is God?" 
"God why you take so long to answer my prayer?"
"God are you there?" 
"God, are you busy?"
"God, are you mad at me?"
But I know God will never leave me! 
I am very happy I see myself  need God so much! 
I am very happy that I see myself seeking for God! 
I am very happy that  I desire for HIS love!
I feel secure in God!
My life is for GOD! 
I want to be a kid forever in God! 
Like a kid that can not live without parents 
Rely on God! 
Trust God like kids trust their parents. 

   

Baptized

Yesterday, 26th February 2012, Sunday 
I was baptized! 
Baptism is important for Christian.  

" Peter replied,' Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off --for all whom the Lord our God will call.' With many other words he warned them, 'save yourselves from this corrupt generation.' Those who accepted his message were be baptize, and the about three thousand were added to their number that day."  Acts 2:38-41


Here is my testimony why I wanna be baptized. 

Before this, I was not sure I want to be baptized or not. I was worry about my family will not agree with me. So I asked God, "God if You want me to be baptized, please give me a strong touching." And I decided to be baptized after I attended Victory Weekend. I made this decision not because of the strong touching. But because of I found the peace in HIM. He put His peace in my heart. I know I will be peace if He peace is with me. The day before my baptism, I was preparing for my testimony "Why I want to be baptized" because we need to share before we being baptize. I looked back my life. I saw God's amazing grace! Every time I was sad, I 
 asked:" God, do you see my tears?". Every time I was in doubt, I asked:" God, are you there? Are the real God?" But I didn't hear His answer. I thought that was me myself wiped off my own tears and stood up by myself. But when I looked back, I saw Jesus was wiping off my tears and held me up. He held my hand. And today, He is still holding. He was actually answered my question, "Yes, my child, I am here for you. Don't sad, no matter what happen, I will be here for you " "Yes, my child, of course I am here. I am the one and only God. and I LOVE YOU"  but I chose to block out all the answers because I was too sad and angry. I am really grateful that HE loves me. I know when I am sad, He comforts me. When I am desperate, HE hugs me. When I am happy, HE claps for me. How do I deserve this kind of great love? I am a sinner. I always do something that hurt His heart. But HE loves me anyway. HE gave me HIS joy, peace and love. I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back!

This is my ‘rebirth' 's gift from my leaders Bernard & BSean."Therefore,if anyone in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!" 2 Corinthians 5:17 It is an album from our church. Their note: "I am so happy for you for making such important decision. But no worry. This is the best decision to follow Jesus for the rest of your life! Pray that you will grow in God more & more!  "

She plays an important role in my spiritual growth too!

This is from my group leaders FooShang & KahLing

I am so grateful that God loves me so much! He put me in a very good church! HE gave me a very good spiritual family! Hallelujah!

暴风雨 Storm

在两个星期前，从牧师那里听到有一对离开神很久了的夫妻，再次拿起信仰，回到神的殿中。 
Hallelujah！天上万天使齐欢呼鼓掌！ 
但是...在他们回到神的怀里不久后，他们经历了一个很大的打击。 
这对夫妻失去了他们还未来得及出世的孩子！ 
为什么会这样呢？
再次回到主的怀中不应该是平安喜乐的吗？
为什么上帝没有看顾他们呢？
为什么上帝要夺回他赐给他们的礼物呢？
我相信在我们的心中都会有这样的疑问。
甚至有些人会应为这样而放弃神。
但是当牧师信息慰问那对夫妻时，他们回了一封很positive的信息。
感谢主！感谢他们并没有因为这次的挫折，打击而再次离开神！

其实很多时候我们都会认为
当我们成为基督徒后，我们的生活就从此风平浪静，顺风顺水
但是其实我们应该知道，我们信主之后，我们可能会遇到更大风，更大的雨
这是试炼，
试炼令我们在信仰中成长
这也许是魔鬼的工作，
魔鬼不喜欢我们信靠那唯一的真神，它会想尽办法来破坏我们跟神的关系
但是我们要清楚知道我们的神绝对比魔鬼强大很多很多很多
信靠神让我们得着平安，喜乐
可是当我们的生命经历着大暴风雨时，平安喜乐在哪里？！
这份平安，这份喜乐其实就在我们心里
上帝赐下的这份喜乐是没有人能夺去的
当你对上帝有强大信心，当你有上帝赐下的平安喜乐时你还害怕什么？！
要记得， 上帝绝对不会在我们的生命当中放下错误的安排
因为我们是祂最爱的孩子

“神爱世人，
甚至将祂的独生子赐给他们
叫一切信他的
不致灭亡，反得永生”        约翰福音3：16

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son,

that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life "       John3:16

在我们生命中的暴风雨，不管大小，都会有值得我们学习的
上帝关了我们一道小门，绝对会为我们开回一道更大的门！ 
 amen！

一直都在

昨天自己一个人去了Pavilion，在学校上完课就搭shuttle bus去LRT station。一路上带着耳机，听着喜欢的歌曲。当我走靠近LRT station时，有一种很刺耳的声音灌进耳朵，把耳机拔掉，听见机器轰隆隆响的声音，心里猜想应该是在装修。当我到LRT station时，果然是在装修。当时，虽然依然把耳机塞在耳朵，歌曲依然在播，但是已经听不见旋律，听不见歌词了。耳朵完完全全被轰隆隆声占据。这时， 心里突然又种感动，上帝在对我说话了。

我听见祂对我说：

“你明明知道我爱你，

你明明知道我不会离你而去，

你明明知道我看着你，

我正在对你说话，

为什么你因为撒旦的欺骗的话语，

就把我放弃，就以为我离弃你？

你明明知道我爱你！”

对呀！我的天父一直都在！他对我们承诺永远不会离弃我们！

“我必不撇下你，也不会丢弃你” （希伯来书13：5）

" Never will I leave you, Never will I forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5)

其 实上帝就好像耳机里播放着的歌曲一样，当你周围的环境很安静，很平静时，你能够很清楚听见那美妙的旋律，美丽的歌词，就好像上帝在你耳边说话一样。当你的 生活舒适，平静时你觉得上帝跟你很近，很亲密，很爱你。你会说：“亲爱的天父上帝，感谢你这么爱我，把我捧在手掌心。我也爱你！”

但 是当很刺耳，令人厌烦的轰隆隆机器声灌进你耳朵，你完全听不见那旋律那歌词，你以为歌曲不再播放了。其实，歌曲依然在播着。当我们生活中遇到大问题，生活 不平静，经历困难，觉得生活糟糕时，你以为上帝不在了。你以为上帝不要你了，把你丢在泥沼里，让你深陷入苦难里。但是其实上帝一直都在，只是我们不用心去 听见祂，我们曲解祂。

在这样的情况下，通常会有两种反应，

对于自尊心强的人会把上帝推得远远的，说：“上帝，既然你先把我丢下，那么我也不要你！我自己也可以活得很好！”（但是从来都是人们不要上帝呀！这样的话，让上帝的心碎。）

而对于另一种人他们会别过面不看上帝，他们会一直质问上帝，一直问"为什么你不要我"？我做错了什么吗？”但只是一直的问，却不去听上帝的回答。

我们都不要成为这两种人，当我们的生活不平静生活糟糕时，我们要祷告，寻求上帝的带领。记得他不撇下我们，也不丢弃我们！而且没有什么困难是过不了的，因为我们有全能的天父上帝！我们的天父比任何问题都大！

“神信守祂的应许，不会让你受考验过于你能承受的；

在你受考验的时候，祂要赐你能力使你足以忍受这考验，

因此，祂会为你开出路的。” （歌林多前书10：13）

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.

And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.

But when you are tempted,He will also provide a way out

so that you can stand up under it"  (1 CORINTHIANS 10:13) 

 AMEN