Prayer

求主助我知人伤痛,让我知道如何相助;唤醒我心赐我怜悯,让祢大爱借我流露。

Lord, when I learn that someone is hurting,
Help me know what to do and to say;
Speak to my heart and give me compassion,
Let Your great love flow through me today.
—K. De Haan

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

My Dream


Yesterday (I am not sure it is yesterday or this morning bcoz I've been stay awake for 2 nights ),
was my first time to think about giving up on psychology.
It is been almost 7 years I dreaming about psychology 
and now I am finally and officially a psychology student 
This is the beginning of my dream
The beginning that I prayed for years 
but in the 5th week of my first semester, I am already think to give up?
I was thinking if I don't choose psychology 
Maybe now I am carrying a backpack and ridding on the wind of freedom
traveling around the world
see, touch, listen, taste and feel things that I never try before
Maybe my notebooks will be filled by beautiful stories and beautiful names
and I start dreaming those stories will someday being published  
and definitely the story in my diary will totally different from now
and I will meet different people 
Be a world traveler Be a writer Be a counselor 
Those are my dreams
Maybe I never tell anyone about my dream to become a writer before
it is because I am not sure will I be one in the future 
But, yes. I love stories and I love writing 
I never give up my dream on writing when I chose to study psychology so I can be a counselor in the future,
I am just holding it and waiting for God to open a door for me 
and I am sure HE will 
Wondering if I like writing so much, why I chose psychology for my degree?
Actually I am not obsess about psychology and sometimes those theories seem funny to me.
But I do like psychology and I embrace psychology
I am pretty sure the path I am taking now has God's purpose in it
I decided to become a counselor when I was 13
my initial thinking was I want to help those people who has problem in their life
and after that, I realized that this dream is given by God
God has His purpose in my life
For so many years, I prayed for my dream come true 
I pray that God use me for His kingdom. 
And now, I am standing right at the starting point
There is no way that I will regret 
and I would never turn back
Although this semester is tough for me, 
the assignments stressed me 
when I saw all my classmate are dealing good with it and I can't
I felt sad, my confidence and faith is defeated.
I asked God, why it is so difficult? Y You arrange these obstacles for me?
and the answer I get is 
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.
And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.
But when you are tempted,He will also provide a way out
so that you can stand up under it"  (1 CORINTHIANS 10:13)
God loves me, always has, always will
So, I should not be afraid!
My dream is not about me. It is all about Jesus Christ
I want to use my whole life to glorify HIM!
I am sure I will be able to finish my psychology degree and even master because God is walking with me. 
 
 
    

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