My Dream

Yesterday (I am not sure it is yesterday or this morning bcoz I've been stay awake for 2 nights ),

was my first time to think about giving up on psychology.

It is been almost 7 years I dreaming about psychology 

and now I am finally and officially a psychology student 

This is the beginning of my dream

The beginning that I prayed for years 

but in the 5th week of my first semester, I am already think to give up?

I was thinking if I don't choose psychology 

Maybe now I am carrying a backpack and ridding on the wind of freedom

traveling around the world

see, touch, listen, taste and feel things that I never try before

Maybe my notebooks will be filled by beautiful stories and beautiful names

and I start dreaming those stories will someday being published  

and definitely the story in my diary will totally different from now

and I will meet different people 

Be a world traveler Be a writer Be a counselor 

Those are my dreams

Maybe I never tell anyone about my dream to become a writer before

it is because I am not sure will I be one in the future 

But, yes. I love stories and I love writing 

I never give up my dream on writing when I chose to study psychology so I can be a counselor in the future,

I am just holding it and waiting for God to open a door for me 

and I am sure HE will 

Wondering if I like writing so much, why I chose psychology for my degree?

Actually I am not obsess about psychology and sometimes those theories seem funny to me.

But I do like psychology and I embrace psychology

I am pretty sure the path I am taking now has God's purpose in it

I decided to become a counselor when I was 13

my initial thinking was I want to help those people who has problem in their life

and after that, I realized that this dream is given by God

God has His purpose in my life

For so many years, I prayed for my dream come true 

I pray that God use me for His kingdom. 

And now, I am standing right at the starting point

There is no way that I will regret 

and I would never turn back

Although this semester is tough for me, 

the assignments stressed me 

when I saw all my classmate are dealing good with it and I can't

I felt sad, my confidence and faith is defeated.

I asked God, why it is so difficult? Y You arrange these obstacles for me?

and the answer I get is 

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.

And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.

But when you are tempted,He will also provide a way out

so that you can stand up under it"  (1 CORINTHIANS 10:13)

God loves me, always has, always will

So, I should not be afraid!

My dream is not about me. It is all about Jesus Christ

I want to use my whole life to glorify HIM!

I am sure I will be able to finish my psychology degree and even master because God is walking with me.