Laughing gor 之潜罪犯

相信大家都知道Laughing gor吧？
从电影和电视剧，我每一部都看了
不是我很迷谢天华
（在我小时候看的古惑仔系列里，谢天华饰演的“大天二”只不过是个胆小的角色）
只是我很爱看戏
电影，戏剧都看
与其说我爱看戏，不如说我爱看故事
因为我也爱看书
（离题了，扯回来）
谢天华饰演的laughing是一名卧底
我觉得卧底很可怜，因为他们要战战兢兢的活在谎言中
时间一久，谎言和现实都分不清了
黑与白的界限模糊了 
当初所坚持的正义被一切的不公给掩盖
就这样踏入不归路
但是
在这部电影当中
laughing相信正义的心并没有被动摇
支援他的上司死了，没有人能证实他的卧底身份
在大家眼中他是该死的杀人犯
但是他并没有因为这样而忘记他警员的身份
并没有放弃他的正义的信念
其实我要说的不是laughing很厉害
我想说的是信念
对与错
黑与白
戏里吴镇宇饰演的霍天任是一名犯罪心理学的教授
他和一群黑警在做一些犯法的事
但是他们却说他们“犯法却不犯罪”
有时候我觉得一个人的思想真的很可怕
在一般人眼中，霍天任的理念是错的
但是在霍天任和一群支持他的人眼中，
他的理念是绝对的对
一个错的理念，会带来很多伤害
但是
如何分对与错？
黑与白？
是否我们要活在灰色地带？
一个想法总有人支持和反对
当你觉得对的理念，出现了反对的声音
你是否会怀疑？会动摇？
我会！
我们是要坚持还是放弃呢？
在这个困惑的是时候，
我们就要去到上帝那里
因为上帝是绝对对的！
而圣经就是上帝话语，所以圣经就是我们的指引
很多人说，人生不公平
其实我赞成这说法
眼睛看见许许多多不公平的事发生
但是我相信上帝是公义的
「惟耶和华坐着为王，直到永远，他已经为审判设摆他的宝座。他要按公义审判世界，按正直判断万民。」 诗篇9:7-8

祂会审判世上的一切不公和不义

「诸天必表明他的公义，因为上帝是施行审判的。」诗篇50:6

 所以当你无法分辨

黑与白

善与恶

对与错

请回到上帝面前

抓

小时候我们都很爱抓东西
能吸引我们的，我们都会伸手去抓
杯子、碗碟、玩具、漂亮的花朵、蝴蝶
长大了以后
虽然我们拥有了很多东西
也懂得“握”和“牵”
但是我们好像比小时候更爱抓了
小时候我们抓是因为好奇心
但是长大了以后
我们为什么而抓呢？
我们因为缺乏安全感
因为贪心
因为“我不管！我就是要！”的心态来抓
在我中一中二的时期
我抓的最多
想抓住父母的爱
兄弟的爱
朋友的爱
自由
虽然拥有了，但是还想抓得更多
那是一段寻找自我的阶段 
当时觉得很痛苦
现在看回去
庆幸自己拥有那一段时期，让自己成长了那么多
在那个时期
我抓到了我这一辈子最珍贵的宝物
因为那一个宝物
我开始学会
"牵"和"握"
“被牵”和“被握"

那就是主耶稣的爱

祂那无私的爱
让我有能力去爱自己
更有能力去爱别人
“无私”不只是用来修饰主耶稣的爱的形容词
那爱是货真价实的无私和无条件

很多人的一生都在抓
在小时侯 抓
青少年时期 抓
成长了以后 抓
30岁 抓
40岁 抓
一辈子都在抓
但是其实他们都会发现

越抓他们越不快乐

青少年时期觉得需要更多的爱 
去抓了个男友/女友
家人反对
抓的更紧
抓到最后原来爱不见了，只剩下“想证明给家人看你是对的”的好胜心
我不是说青少年没有真爱
也不是说青少年的爱是错的
当时这或许是不成熟的爱
当两个青少年互相“抓”着对方
越不想失去就抓的越紧
最后双方都断了气
分手了
这时你很不甘心
你想证明你是值得被爱的
你能够去爱人
所以在抓多另一个
最终还是断了气
抓了4、5个
死了4、5次以后
你累了
你对爱反感
你怀疑这个世界没有真爱
你对自己的价值只有更深的怀疑
最后
你什么都抓不到

反而掐死了自己

我相信爱
爱是纯洁的
要爱自己
才有能力爱别人
别人才会爱你
如果你真的没有能力去爱
去找爱的源头吧
主耶稣永远张开双手等你投进祂的怀抱

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A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:
Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here.

I'm 25 this year. I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above.

You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York.

My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married?

I wanted to ask: what should I do to marry rich persons like you?

Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit.

If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York City Garden(?), $250k annual income is not enough.

I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:
1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
2) Which age group should I target?
3) Why most wives of the riches are only average-looking? I've met a few girls who don't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.

4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

A philosophical reply from CEO of J.P. Morgan:
Dear Ms. Pretty,
I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours. Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor.

My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.

From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain.

Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money" : Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.

However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year.

Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worse 10 years later.

By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position".
If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased".

Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income.This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Hope this reply helps.

signed,
J.P. Morgan CEO

Why she takes so long?

Yesterday was my second time serving in Kidszone in our church. 
We threw them a party. 
When my "principal", Agape asked me what I can prepare for the kid's party 
Haha! I've no idea at all
And finally I bought 3 big packs  choco candy 
Other teachers prepared them the more proper food (sandwiches, breads )
Last month I was taking care of junior kids 
and yesterday I was taking care of senior kids 
Kids are cute! 
But I quite agree with a say that I heard from somewhere 
"When kids fall asleep, they are angels,
 When they are awake, they become devils"
haha! 
Okay I should not use "devil", they are naughty angels that full of energy.
I like to see how kids interact with other.
I totally agree that kids is blank paper, what you write on them will make who they are.
Junior kids and senior kids are totally different. 
Different level of naughty?! Haha!
When the service finish, the parents come and pick up their kids
The kids left one after another 
There was a pair of bother and sister started to worry 
The brother is 4 years old(I guess) and the sister is 3 years old (I think)
The brother kept mumbling 
:" where is my mummy?"
I answered:" Wait for awhile. She will come later."
"Why she takes so long?"
"Where is she?"
"Where is my mummy's handbag?"
I saw his worries. 
He scared he will be abandoned by his parents
He kept guessing :" Is it they go home to eat first?"
and suddenly, he seemed like he understood why his parents is not here yet.
He said:" Oh! I know! because I dont listen to them just now. So they left me here!" 
I felt sad when I heard this. 
A 4 years old kid, worrying he will be left. 
He was scare, he felt insecure.
But we adults know their parents won't leave them. 
And I thought of myself. 
"Where is God?" 
"God why you take so long to answer my prayer?"
"God are you there?" 
"God, are you busy?"
"God, are you mad at me?"
But I know God will never leave me! 
I am very happy I see myself  need God so much! 
I am very happy that I see myself seeking for God! 
I am very happy that  I desire for HIS love!
I feel secure in God!
My life is for GOD! 
I want to be a kid forever in God! 
Like a kid that can not live without parents 
Rely on God! 
Trust God like kids trust their parents. 

   

Most happy days in UCSI

I thought UCSI will be a a place that I can leave without thinking twice.
But what happened these two days is really kind of made me wanted to stay.
Yesterday ,7th March 2012
 I went to college at 11pm to meet up with Boh
 I went to donate blood~ 480ml!!!!
I'm so healthy that the nurse don't have any hesitation to take my blood...
I was the last one who laid on there but the first one who finished
My blood was just like rushed out @.@
After I donated blood, we went to have our lunch

Mine is Beef bacon spaghetti and Boh's is turkey ham sandwich
It is really nice
This the first time I visited the Frachie Cafe @ UCSI
After we had our lunch, it is still early for our class
We just walked around at Block A
And we saw wrote our wishes on the board that stick on the notice board

the one at the left is Boh's wish 'get married with JJ'
the right one is mine 'live my life to the full. Being loved and able to love'
LOVE is really important in my life 
After that, we saw a stall there opened by medic student
They were helping people to do the henna
I love it!

so this is my first time for henna

 so that was our time to go class 2pm
we always have fun in that class
< Speech and Oral Communication>
the lecturer is humorous and nice
when the class ended, I had a nice talking with my classmate
I never do this before
I am always the one who leave the classroom at the first time
When Boh and I were on the way home,
we met Kavin at the Block A
and he invited us to go to the "Crossroads musical"

 So 8th March 2012
it is the day for "Crossroads"
Me and my housemate dressed up and we went college together
Boh was waiting me at Block A , I went to meet her

the show is at Auditorium, the place that I went for Moral Studies and Malaysian Studies class
The show is really awesome!
The stage that my lecturers always stand on it and teaching is boring 
And today the same stage but there were a bunch of student stood on it
and they were shining on the stage
They are really awesome!!!
I started to like musical
Musical is different with movie
It is so live!
The actors on the stage can have interaction with the audiences
I think this is the most fun part

Boh and me <3

So that is my most enjoy days in UCSI
and I will leave anyway
for my dream
Hope I can find my life in HELP University
2 more months to go~

Thank God for blessing my life 


*To someone,
   You are a really charming guy. Will you realize I am gone when next sem start? Wish you can reach your dream. Never lose your passion. That is a part of your charming! 

Worries

The recent me，
courage has been covered by worries;
persistence has been covered by doubt;
Too many excuses to make me retreat，
Too many worries to make me escape from what I want ...
What I tried to escape for last year,
they are still exist after one year...
Problem will always there if you don't go to solve it...
so the same choices
the same worries
UCSI or HELP ?
It is actually a more simple question than  "to be or not to be"
The answer already lay in my heart for one year
I just not dare to take it
My wise friend said:" don't be so worry, worry won't help"
this is right
worry wont help!
So I am going to do what I want
I will make sure there is God's purpose in it!
Life is full of choices!
" change the worry to concern", my wise friend said it 

Euthanasia

Euthanasia. This is a fresh word for me. This was the topic of the speech writing in my midterm. The definition is the practice of intentionally ending a life in order to relieve pain and suffering. In the other words, mercy killing or good death. People may think that it is positive because what they see are the positive words: relieve pain and suffering, mercy, good. But I saw are ending a life, killing and death. Do Euthanasia is really mercy? For me it is a suicide. And it is  legal in some country. This will normally happen on the patients that have serious diseases like terminal cancer，HIV , AIDS  or seriously injured, lost the ability to move but they still have cognitive. They just want to end their lives because they are so suffering. I know the pain, the suffering. But maybe I cant understand because I never been there. I just think that no matter what we experiencing in our lives is the plan of God. There is always a purpose of God for what happened in our lives. We are tougher than we know. Don't let the fear kills you. Don't choose to die because you scare to live. You will never know what you will encounter unless you live to the end. Like the picture above, some people even tattooed "DO NOT RESUSCITATE" on the chest. So when they pass out or have some emergency, and others try to help and they will stop when they see the word on their chest. For me this is the act of the coward. Do they so scare to live? I hope everyone of us will have the courage to fight! Fight for our lives! Never give up. When Satan whispers beside your ear: "Why you continue to fight when you know there is no hope?"  Please know that we will never lost our hopes when we are be with GOD.    
 "Do not be a fool--why die before your time?" (Ecclesiastes 7:17)