My Guardian Angel

As you all know, I am having holiday (sem break) now
Since that my little bro dont have school on weekend, 
so we decided to spent our weekend at my great-grandma's house
last night about 1.30am ++, everybody went to sleep already but I still awake watching movie
I can't finish the movie because I felt a little bit dizzy(I think it is because the whether was muggy)
so I closed my laptop and wake my Jackie up to go to sleep with me 

My dog----Jackie is sleeping in the same room with me ever since he came to our house (unless I am not at home)
he was one month old back then and now he is 5 years old already
He has a habit that he won't go to my room to sleep until I go in
He will just wait for me, sleeping in the living room and accompany me
Okay, back to the topic
After Jackie woke up, he ran to the back of the house 
And when I was standing in front of my room's waiting for him to come, I saw a scorpion 
Scorpion!!!!!!!!!
I was really terrified because my Jackie saw it too and he was going to sniff it 
His nose was so close to it and if his nose touch it, it will sting him right away
I shouted his name for 3 or 4 times and he finally stopped and turned to look at me
I immediately picked up him and lock him in room 
and my little bro woke up because I made too much noise
So it ended up by I dont need to kill the scorpion by myself
I was planning to kill it by myself because everyone was sleeping
Thanks God, my bro woke up because I was actually very scare
The scorpion is big! It is about my palm's length 
and it is ain't easy to kill.

Wondering why I still can take photo at this horrible moment? It is because I was using the flash light of my phone's camera to see where is it and make sure it won't hide up while my bro was looking for tool to kill it.

I was so grateful Jackie is still sleeping at ease beside me now
I nearly lose him
I thank God for sending him to me ,to our family, to be my guardian angel 
Although people might say:" having a dog in house is good because he can protect the family,"
But I never want my Jackie to sacrifice for us
I dont want him to fight with a snake if a snake do appears in our house
I dont want him to rush to the thief and bite his leg if our house is broken in
I can protect him because I am big , he is small 
I thank God for not taking him away from me
I love him although he might be not adorable in some people eyes
He gets dirty sometimes, he always bully kids, he is so noisy and keep barking at the people that pass by our house......
No matter what, I love him and I dont want any pay back 

The bible said God looks after even a sparrow, 
my Jackie is bigger than bird
so I believe God will look after him too.  

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" Matthew 6:26 


     





  

Scrat and his acorns

Found something that look like the acorn in Bukit Bnedera

Have you ever watched Ice Age?
Ice Age is definitely a cartoon movie that loved by kids. 
When I first watched Ice Age, there was a squirrel made me feel so "annoying".

The squirrel name Scrat. He is a saber-toothed squirrel who is so obsessed with collecting acorns. The strange things is he'll never eat those acorns. He'll just keep them. And he constantly putting his life in danger to obtain and defend those acorns. I really can't understand why don't he just eat them. And finally, I understand that Scrat is only blindly seeking and keeping the acorns since that he keeps chasing them from Ice Age to Ice Age 4. There is no any purpose in it.

At some point, we humans are just like Scrat. We blindly earning for money. We'll never satisfy no matter how much money we have. Somehow, we will even forgot the initial purpose of why we spent so much time and put so much effort in earning money. Fathers earn money to feed the family, young people earn money to realize their dreams... but as time goes by, the young people's dreams eroded; fathers spent too much time in earning money and neglected their families. 

There is a epic moment in Ice Age 3. Scrat met a pretty squirrel. They fought for the acorns. and finally, they fall in love. Live happily in their love house and put the acorns out of their lives. But at last, Scrat left to search the acorns again. Sometimes, this happen in our lives too right?  

1 Timothy 6:10, For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.  

It is not that me as a Christian is so pretentious that I don't need money to survive but my God tells us dont be greedy, eager for money. Greedy in money is a root of all kinds of evil.        

I am still on the way learning how to view money as moderate in my life.

See! That's Jesus!

I read a sharing from 《文桥》,（ a Christian bimonthly journal）this morning. 

Original text: 
“当那位在剧中饰演耶稣的队友走近时，一位天真的孩子带着些许羞涩，惊喜的告诉身边的友人：“Tengok， itu Yesus！”。当这位队友坐下时，小孩就迫不及待地扑到“耶稣”的怀包里，舒舒服服地笑着、靠着。...”

Translated text:
 {When the teammate that acted Jesus in the drama came near, a naive little kid saw him and told his friend shyly and surprisingly :" See, that's Jesus!" When the teammate sat down, the little kid can't wait and ran into his arm, lying and smiling in his arm comfortably.....}

When I read this, it surprised me. What ran into my mind is same with the author, when I see Jesus someday, will I tell the people around me about HIM? Will I run in to HIS arm joyfully or I will come to HIM with a guilty heart?    

Frankly, I never imagine that when I meet Him, I'll run into HIS arm and hug HIM. The image in my mind is when I see HIM, I'll only apologize and tell HIM:" Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I didnt do good enough. Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I didnt listen to You. Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I did so much things to break Your heart." 

Another thing that came into my mind is do I ready to meet HIM yet? We always think that we still have plenty of time until we meet HIM. So, we just slacking and not alert about the time. But we will never know the time. Only God knows the time. 

This sharing let me make a reflection and ponder about my life. I want to be His good disciple. And one day when I see HIM, I will run into HIS arm like a child. The child that He proud of!   

My Dream

Yesterday (I am not sure it is yesterday or this morning bcoz I've been stay awake for 2 nights ),

was my first time to think about giving up on psychology.

It is been almost 7 years I dreaming about psychology 

and now I am finally and officially a psychology student 

This is the beginning of my dream

The beginning that I prayed for years 

but in the 5th week of my first semester, I am already think to give up?

I was thinking if I don't choose psychology 

Maybe now I am carrying a backpack and ridding on the wind of freedom

traveling around the world

see, touch, listen, taste and feel things that I never try before

Maybe my notebooks will be filled by beautiful stories and beautiful names

and I start dreaming those stories will someday being published  

and definitely the story in my diary will totally different from now

and I will meet different people 

Be a world traveler Be a writer Be a counselor 

Those are my dreams

Maybe I never tell anyone about my dream to become a writer before

it is because I am not sure will I be one in the future 

But, yes. I love stories and I love writing 

I never give up my dream on writing when I chose to study psychology so I can be a counselor in the future,

I am just holding it and waiting for God to open a door for me 

and I am sure HE will 

Wondering if I like writing so much, why I chose psychology for my degree?

Actually I am not obsess about psychology and sometimes those theories seem funny to me.

But I do like psychology and I embrace psychology

I am pretty sure the path I am taking now has God's purpose in it

I decided to become a counselor when I was 13

my initial thinking was I want to help those people who has problem in their life

and after that, I realized that this dream is given by God

God has His purpose in my life

For so many years, I prayed for my dream come true 

I pray that God use me for His kingdom. 

And now, I am standing right at the starting point

There is no way that I will regret 

and I would never turn back

Although this semester is tough for me, 

the assignments stressed me 

when I saw all my classmate are dealing good with it and I can't

I felt sad, my confidence and faith is defeated.

I asked God, why it is so difficult? Y You arrange these obstacles for me?

and the answer I get is 

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.

And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.

But when you are tempted,He will also provide a way out

so that you can stand up under it"  (1 CORINTHIANS 10:13)

God loves me, always has, always will

So, I should not be afraid!

My dream is not about me. It is all about Jesus Christ

I want to use my whole life to glorify HIM!

I am sure I will be able to finish my psychology degree and even master because God is walking with me. 

 

 

    

Obstacles

I lost my patience in everything 
I dont even enjoy my sem break
My heart is like hanging at the half
I am anxious
I am worrying about my result 
Why my result haven't came out yet?
Sometimes, 
I will doubt 
Is it the right choice I chose to change college?
Is it God's plan to put me in HELP?
If I am doing what God wants me to do, 
why I am facing all these things?
All these obstacles made me feel tired 
Or it is my problem?
I am amplifying the things that I am facing?
I dont like complain.
I dont like nagging around
I dont like get angry easily 
So I need to learn to wait patiently 
I need to learn to enjoy the process 
I am so eager to go to the result 
But God wants me to learn how to wait 
how to rely on HIM when I am anxious 
Fully rely on Him is the homework I need to learn 
So now, I need to stop complain, stop nagging and be peace 
Fully rely on HIM!
If I didn't being test, 
How will I know what is the level of my faith?
How will I know how much is my passion toward my dream? 
I do everything is just to glorify HIM!

依然。。。。是个耻

这篇是我在书里看到的一篇诗
里面的内容正是我的想法
人类。。。哼。。。真是个耻
人类自以为是
人类看不见自己需要救赎
人类把自己成为王
却不看那真正至高的王


依然。。。是个耻 @ 憨痴鱼鳞

我是一只蚂蚁
在一次出游
死里逃生
眼见
我的家园已被掩盖
同胞们，死在当中

我是一只小鸟
在空中飞翔
一次响炮
我停留在接近的一棵树枝上
看着人类们在 尘埃中追杀
那死亡游戏

我是一阵无形的风
心灵比人类自由
却周遭人类无畏的行为侵犯
在废气中漫游
在血腥中挥舞
插身于飞弹中

我是一颗孤儿之树
在野生中
一次一次的被人类杀害
却依然继续寻找生命
如今，三月里
我被连根拔起

我是一座建筑物
在人类手中繁荣
也在人类手中消失
我将永远记得
这一次的消失
是往后的历史

我是一颗没有感情的子弹
在人类发明中诞生
我并不晓得我存在的价值
直到一次意外
我在人类血管中穿梭
我并不想被发明成为颗子弹

我是人类
在国家发展下
被称为士兵
再一次的指使下
屠杀了我的同胞
我庆幸，我的名字被士兵取代

我是一国之君
金钱与名誉是我的生命
战争中，我以胜利
十年后，我下土
在人间与地狱中
不曾被遗忘，我的恶
因为 我
依然。。。依然。。。是个耻   

from  少年《作文练习簿》

Hardship

Things are so hard on me recently
Friends, family, relationship with God, the war in my mind
My heart is weary
I am burn-out 
I felt everyone is taking me for granted
It is not easy for me to love everyone of you
It takes my time, my heart 
I will be tired too
I am only a human 
It is like I am the one who pay the effort to maintain our relationships
I am the one who concern, who give encouragements
I am not trying to say I am a great person
I am the only person that paying out 
I just want to say I need encouragements from you
All I want is just simple encouragements
Not gorgeous praise and admired eyes 
I just want to know you care about our relationships
I just want to know my efforts are not wasted 

I am not a good child 
I always do something that break Lord's heart 
I am not perfect 
I am a sinner 
This is why I need Him
I was angry to God about my hardship 
I am asking Him why
but today, He has spoken to me by Our Daily Bread.
 2 Corinthians 1:8-9
" We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead."
God didnt promise we will never have hardship after we believe in Him
but He promises us He will protect us and comfort us when we are in the hardship.
He will give us strength and wisdom to overcome 
I am so blessed to have Him in my life 
I love You my Father in heaven

thank you my  friend
Thanks for you encouragements
嗯，我的屋子很大间
而且我要更努力把它变到更大更大间
I am sure that God proud of you!


 

消逝

一直以来很珍惜的友情消逝了，
你会给与怎样的反应？
我。停在原地。反应不过来。
然后才发现心已经不想留了
一度责怪自己
但是这种感觉就好像一对相爱的恋人突然不爱了
我总是觉得“突然不爱”是一个很不负责任的借口
但是原来“突然不爱”只是用来简化一切一切的失望与伤心
其实那感觉不会变
变的是人
我不知道在这段友情里
我有没有变
但是我感觉你变了
但是大家都说你本来就是这样
是我不了解你
我不知道
我只知道我付出了
我包容了
对不起
我没有心继续下去了
俗话说：“一个巴掌是拍不响的”
我很努力，很努力，很努力
听见的只是我的手掌和风摩擦的声音
很多次，
努力换来心疼的眼泪
这次我没有觉得自己是笨蛋
因为当时的你真的是很值得让我去努力的朋友
很值得让我义无反顾
我还是很爱你这个朋友
很爱很爱
只是没有办法继续爱下去
只能停留在当时的你了
如果有一天
你突然问为什么我们突然不联络了
我当时会流泪还是会一笑而过？
谢谢你这一年来的陪伴

懂得啊柯的人不多了
庆幸的是还有几个互相守候的
谢谢你们

THX Awards

1st of April is April fool 
but for Christian, it is Palm Sunday 
What is Palm Sunday? 
Palm Sunday is a Christian moveable feast that falls on Sunday before Easter
On 1st of April, 
our church had a THX Award (combine service) @ Taylor's Lake Side Campus
THX Award is an event that our church 
Huh?! THX Award? What is that?????

'The THX! Awards recognizes everyone who had a hand in serving and playing a part in a great year for Eaglepoint. We’ve stuck together and fought tooth and nail to make God’s name famous in our nation!  And we want you to know that your contributions have not fallen on deaf ears – God is pleased with us! Let’s rejoice together in all that we’ve accomplished in the year 2011!'

And there I go~

I got a prize!!!!

Yeah! A cup! 

Although it is a small gift 

 I felt really happy and this means a lot to me

This is an encouragement from God and church

It motivated me to continue serving 

 No matter where God wants me to go, I will go!

For HIS will, not mine.

Oppps~ It is written there "Karen Gan: 永远满满奖"

What a cute cup! My prize^^

Kiki and I "Grow in God together"

Laughing gor 之潜罪犯

相信大家都知道Laughing gor吧？
从电影和电视剧，我每一部都看了
不是我很迷谢天华
（在我小时候看的古惑仔系列里，谢天华饰演的“大天二”只不过是个胆小的角色）
只是我很爱看戏
电影，戏剧都看
与其说我爱看戏，不如说我爱看故事
因为我也爱看书
（离题了，扯回来）
谢天华饰演的laughing是一名卧底
我觉得卧底很可怜，因为他们要战战兢兢的活在谎言中
时间一久，谎言和现实都分不清了
黑与白的界限模糊了 
当初所坚持的正义被一切的不公给掩盖
就这样踏入不归路
但是
在这部电影当中
laughing相信正义的心并没有被动摇
支援他的上司死了，没有人能证实他的卧底身份
在大家眼中他是该死的杀人犯
但是他并没有因为这样而忘记他警员的身份
并没有放弃他的正义的信念
其实我要说的不是laughing很厉害
我想说的是信念
对与错
黑与白
戏里吴镇宇饰演的霍天任是一名犯罪心理学的教授
他和一群黑警在做一些犯法的事
但是他们却说他们“犯法却不犯罪”
有时候我觉得一个人的思想真的很可怕
在一般人眼中，霍天任的理念是错的
但是在霍天任和一群支持他的人眼中，
他的理念是绝对的对
一个错的理念，会带来很多伤害
但是
如何分对与错？
黑与白？
是否我们要活在灰色地带？
一个想法总有人支持和反对
当你觉得对的理念，出现了反对的声音
你是否会怀疑？会动摇？
我会！
我们是要坚持还是放弃呢？
在这个困惑的是时候，
我们就要去到上帝那里
因为上帝是绝对对的！
而圣经就是上帝话语，所以圣经就是我们的指引
很多人说，人生不公平
其实我赞成这说法
眼睛看见许许多多不公平的事发生
但是我相信上帝是公义的
「惟耶和华坐着为王，直到永远，他已经为审判设摆他的宝座。他要按公义审判世界，按正直判断万民。」 诗篇9:7-8

祂会审判世上的一切不公和不义

「诸天必表明他的公义，因为上帝是施行审判的。」诗篇50:6

 所以当你无法分辨

黑与白

善与恶

对与错

请回到上帝面前

抓

小时候我们都很爱抓东西
能吸引我们的，我们都会伸手去抓
杯子、碗碟、玩具、漂亮的花朵、蝴蝶
长大了以后
虽然我们拥有了很多东西
也懂得“握”和“牵”
但是我们好像比小时候更爱抓了
小时候我们抓是因为好奇心
但是长大了以后
我们为什么而抓呢？
我们因为缺乏安全感
因为贪心
因为“我不管！我就是要！”的心态来抓
在我中一中二的时期
我抓的最多
想抓住父母的爱
兄弟的爱
朋友的爱
自由
虽然拥有了，但是还想抓得更多
那是一段寻找自我的阶段 
当时觉得很痛苦
现在看回去
庆幸自己拥有那一段时期，让自己成长了那么多
在那个时期
我抓到了我这一辈子最珍贵的宝物
因为那一个宝物
我开始学会
"牵"和"握"
“被牵”和“被握"

那就是主耶稣的爱

祂那无私的爱
让我有能力去爱自己
更有能力去爱别人
“无私”不只是用来修饰主耶稣的爱的形容词
那爱是货真价实的无私和无条件

很多人的一生都在抓
在小时侯 抓
青少年时期 抓
成长了以后 抓
30岁 抓
40岁 抓
一辈子都在抓
但是其实他们都会发现

越抓他们越不快乐

青少年时期觉得需要更多的爱 
去抓了个男友/女友
家人反对
抓的更紧
抓到最后原来爱不见了，只剩下“想证明给家人看你是对的”的好胜心
我不是说青少年没有真爱
也不是说青少年的爱是错的
当时这或许是不成熟的爱
当两个青少年互相“抓”着对方
越不想失去就抓的越紧
最后双方都断了气
分手了
这时你很不甘心
你想证明你是值得被爱的
你能够去爱人
所以在抓多另一个
最终还是断了气
抓了4、5个
死了4、5次以后
你累了
你对爱反感
你怀疑这个世界没有真爱
你对自己的价值只有更深的怀疑
最后
你什么都抓不到

反而掐死了自己

我相信爱
爱是纯洁的
要爱自己
才有能力爱别人
别人才会爱你
如果你真的没有能力去爱
去找爱的源头吧
主耶稣永远张开双手等你投进祂的怀抱

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A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:
Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here.

I'm 25 this year. I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above.

You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York.

My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married?

I wanted to ask: what should I do to marry rich persons like you?

Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit.

If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York City Garden(?), $250k annual income is not enough.

I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:
1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
2) Which age group should I target?
3) Why most wives of the riches are only average-looking? I've met a few girls who don't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.

4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

A philosophical reply from CEO of J.P. Morgan:
Dear Ms. Pretty,
I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours. Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor.

My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.

From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain.

Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money" : Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.

However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year.

Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worse 10 years later.

By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position".
If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased".

Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income.This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Hope this reply helps.

signed,
J.P. Morgan CEO

Why she takes so long?

Yesterday was my second time serving in Kidszone in our church. 
We threw them a party. 
When my "principal", Agape asked me what I can prepare for the kid's party 
Haha! I've no idea at all
And finally I bought 3 big packs  choco candy 
Other teachers prepared them the more proper food (sandwiches, breads )
Last month I was taking care of junior kids 
and yesterday I was taking care of senior kids 
Kids are cute! 
But I quite agree with a say that I heard from somewhere 
"When kids fall asleep, they are angels,
 When they are awake, they become devils"
haha! 
Okay I should not use "devil", they are naughty angels that full of energy.
I like to see how kids interact with other.
I totally agree that kids is blank paper, what you write on them will make who they are.
Junior kids and senior kids are totally different. 
Different level of naughty?! Haha!
When the service finish, the parents come and pick up their kids
The kids left one after another 
There was a pair of bother and sister started to worry 
The brother is 4 years old(I guess) and the sister is 3 years old (I think)
The brother kept mumbling 
:" where is my mummy?"
I answered:" Wait for awhile. She will come later."
"Why she takes so long?"
"Where is she?"
"Where is my mummy's handbag?"
I saw his worries. 
He scared he will be abandoned by his parents
He kept guessing :" Is it they go home to eat first?"
and suddenly, he seemed like he understood why his parents is not here yet.
He said:" Oh! I know! because I dont listen to them just now. So they left me here!" 
I felt sad when I heard this. 
A 4 years old kid, worrying he will be left. 
He was scare, he felt insecure.
But we adults know their parents won't leave them. 
And I thought of myself. 
"Where is God?" 
"God why you take so long to answer my prayer?"
"God are you there?" 
"God, are you busy?"
"God, are you mad at me?"
But I know God will never leave me! 
I am very happy I see myself  need God so much! 
I am very happy that I see myself seeking for God! 
I am very happy that  I desire for HIS love!
I feel secure in God!
My life is for GOD! 
I want to be a kid forever in God! 
Like a kid that can not live without parents 
Rely on God! 
Trust God like kids trust their parents. 

   

Most happy days in UCSI

I thought UCSI will be a a place that I can leave without thinking twice.
But what happened these two days is really kind of made me wanted to stay.
Yesterday ,7th March 2012
 I went to college at 11pm to meet up with Boh
 I went to donate blood~ 480ml!!!!
I'm so healthy that the nurse don't have any hesitation to take my blood...
I was the last one who laid on there but the first one who finished
My blood was just like rushed out @.@
After I donated blood, we went to have our lunch

Mine is Beef bacon spaghetti and Boh's is turkey ham sandwich
It is really nice
This the first time I visited the Frachie Cafe @ UCSI
After we had our lunch, it is still early for our class
We just walked around at Block A
And we saw wrote our wishes on the board that stick on the notice board

the one at the left is Boh's wish 'get married with JJ'
the right one is mine 'live my life to the full. Being loved and able to love'
LOVE is really important in my life 
After that, we saw a stall there opened by medic student
They were helping people to do the henna
I love it!

so this is my first time for henna

 so that was our time to go class 2pm
we always have fun in that class
< Speech and Oral Communication>
the lecturer is humorous and nice
when the class ended, I had a nice talking with my classmate
I never do this before
I am always the one who leave the classroom at the first time
When Boh and I were on the way home,
we met Kavin at the Block A
and he invited us to go to the "Crossroads musical"

 So 8th March 2012
it is the day for "Crossroads"
Me and my housemate dressed up and we went college together
Boh was waiting me at Block A , I went to meet her

the show is at Auditorium, the place that I went for Moral Studies and Malaysian Studies class
The show is really awesome!
The stage that my lecturers always stand on it and teaching is boring 
And today the same stage but there were a bunch of student stood on it
and they were shining on the stage
They are really awesome!!!
I started to like musical
Musical is different with movie
It is so live!
The actors on the stage can have interaction with the audiences
I think this is the most fun part

Boh and me <3

So that is my most enjoy days in UCSI
and I will leave anyway
for my dream
Hope I can find my life in HELP University
2 more months to go~

Thank God for blessing my life 


*To someone,
   You are a really charming guy. Will you realize I am gone when next sem start? Wish you can reach your dream. Never lose your passion. That is a part of your charming! 

Worries

The recent me，
courage has been covered by worries;
persistence has been covered by doubt;
Too many excuses to make me retreat，
Too many worries to make me escape from what I want ...
What I tried to escape for last year,
they are still exist after one year...
Problem will always there if you don't go to solve it...
so the same choices
the same worries
UCSI or HELP ?
It is actually a more simple question than  "to be or not to be"
The answer already lay in my heart for one year
I just not dare to take it
My wise friend said:" don't be so worry, worry won't help"
this is right
worry wont help!
So I am going to do what I want
I will make sure there is God's purpose in it!
Life is full of choices!
" change the worry to concern", my wise friend said it 

Euthanasia

Euthanasia. This is a fresh word for me. This was the topic of the speech writing in my midterm. The definition is the practice of intentionally ending a life in order to relieve pain and suffering. In the other words, mercy killing or good death. People may think that it is positive because what they see are the positive words: relieve pain and suffering, mercy, good. But I saw are ending a life, killing and death. Do Euthanasia is really mercy? For me it is a suicide. And it is  legal in some country. This will normally happen on the patients that have serious diseases like terminal cancer，HIV , AIDS  or seriously injured, lost the ability to move but they still have cognitive. They just want to end their lives because they are so suffering. I know the pain, the suffering. But maybe I cant understand because I never been there. I just think that no matter what we experiencing in our lives is the plan of God. There is always a purpose of God for what happened in our lives. We are tougher than we know. Don't let the fear kills you. Don't choose to die because you scare to live. You will never know what you will encounter unless you live to the end. Like the picture above, some people even tattooed "DO NOT RESUSCITATE" on the chest. So when they pass out or have some emergency, and others try to help and they will stop when they see the word on their chest. For me this is the act of the coward. Do they so scare to live? I hope everyone of us will have the courage to fight! Fight for our lives! Never give up. When Satan whispers beside your ear: "Why you continue to fight when you know there is no hope?"  Please know that we will never lost our hopes when we are be with GOD.    
 "Do not be a fool--why die before your time?" (Ecclesiastes 7:17)    

Baptized

Yesterday, 26th February 2012, Sunday 
I was baptized! 
Baptism is important for Christian.  

" Peter replied,' Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off --for all whom the Lord our God will call.' With many other words he warned them, 'save yourselves from this corrupt generation.' Those who accepted his message were be baptize, and the about three thousand were added to their number that day."  Acts 2:38-41


Here is my testimony why I wanna be baptized. 

Before this, I was not sure I want to be baptized or not. I was worry about my family will not agree with me. So I asked God, "God if You want me to be baptized, please give me a strong touching." And I decided to be baptized after I attended Victory Weekend. I made this decision not because of the strong touching. But because of I found the peace in HIM. He put His peace in my heart. I know I will be peace if He peace is with me. The day before my baptism, I was preparing for my testimony "Why I want to be baptized" because we need to share before we being baptize. I looked back my life. I saw God's amazing grace! Every time I was sad, I 
 asked:" God, do you see my tears?". Every time I was in doubt, I asked:" God, are you there? Are the real God?" But I didn't hear His answer. I thought that was me myself wiped off my own tears and stood up by myself. But when I looked back, I saw Jesus was wiping off my tears and held me up. He held my hand. And today, He is still holding. He was actually answered my question, "Yes, my child, I am here for you. Don't sad, no matter what happen, I will be here for you " "Yes, my child, of course I am here. I am the one and only God. and I LOVE YOU"  but I chose to block out all the answers because I was too sad and angry. I am really grateful that HE loves me. I know when I am sad, He comforts me. When I am desperate, HE hugs me. When I am happy, HE claps for me. How do I deserve this kind of great love? I am a sinner. I always do something that hurt His heart. But HE loves me anyway. HE gave me HIS joy, peace and love. I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back!

This is my ‘rebirth' 's gift from my leaders Bernard & BSean."Therefore,if anyone in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!" 2 Corinthians 5:17 It is an album from our church. Their note: "I am so happy for you for making such important decision. But no worry. This is the best decision to follow Jesus for the rest of your life! Pray that you will grow in God more & more!  "

She plays an important role in my spiritual growth too!

This is from my group leaders FooShang & KahLing

I am so grateful that God loves me so much! He put me in a very good church! HE gave me a very good spiritual family! Hallelujah!

Outing

Cute little cakes right? I bought it. But no candle.

                                    

  I  like this noodles. Spicy! For me, SPICY= TASTY

                                  

Acting Q when making wishes. Seems like so many wishes! Erm, I actually made the first wish for her. "Found her Lee Min Ho guy soon!"

  So difficult to meet him in KL. and here he was.

                                         

Even more difficult for them to meet each other

Happy earlier birthday girl！

This wonderful art really impressed me! The old doors on the ceiling. There are so many doors in the sky. But which one is the one which leading to heaven?　

                                          

One Day

 

This is the movie that I accidentally found out when I was bored

What made me watch this movie?

Maybe it is the description 

"These two best friends decided to meet one day in a year" 

Meet one day in one year?! 

Why?

Then I downloaded it. 

I really want to know how two best friends love each other

Or maybe what I want to know is Is there really has pure friendship love between boy and girl 

This movie really made me laugh out loud and cry out loud 

Their love is tangled.

They are made to meet each other

She is lack of confidence He is so easy with things

He always goes with the flow She is cautious

He encourage her when she is flinch 

She brings him back to the practical world when he lost

I felt really upset and heartbroken when she cut off their friendship 

I was angry why she just can be with him and pull him back

At the same time, I am so understand her helplessness and powerlessness 

Who will really want to see the one he/she loves falling 

There are so many times that he wants to confess his love to her 

There are so many times that she wants to tell him her feeling

BUT 

failed 

I understand this

He thinks that she deserve better 

She thinks that she is not good enough for him

They know each other so well 

They are too afraid to hurt each other 

They know the hurt from themselves will be thousand time pain than others 

They care 

They treasure 

"You won't lost when you don't own "

so their love is still tangled.

Finally... 

Eventually...

Do you know what is needed to "in love" with your "best friend"?

Courage

but courage is always not enough.

Confidence

Not enough too 

I think 

It is the courage and confidence to kill your rational thinking

In other word, you need to go crazy...