See! That's Jesus!

I read a sharing from 《文桥》,（ a Christian bimonthly journal）this morning. 

Original text: 
“当那位在剧中饰演耶稣的队友走近时，一位天真的孩子带着些许羞涩，惊喜的告诉身边的友人：“Tengok， itu Yesus！”。当这位队友坐下时，小孩就迫不及待地扑到“耶稣”的怀包里，舒舒服服地笑着、靠着。...”

Translated text:
 {When the teammate that acted Jesus in the drama came near, a naive little kid saw him and told his friend shyly and surprisingly :" See, that's Jesus!" When the teammate sat down, the little kid can't wait and ran into his arm, lying and smiling in his arm comfortably.....}

When I read this, it surprised me. What ran into my mind is same with the author, when I see Jesus someday, will I tell the people around me about HIM? Will I run in to HIS arm joyfully or I will come to HIM with a guilty heart?    

Frankly, I never imagine that when I meet Him, I'll run into HIS arm and hug HIM. The image in my mind is when I see HIM, I'll only apologize and tell HIM:" Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I didnt do good enough. Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I didnt listen to You. Oh, Lord, I am sorry. I did so much things to break Your heart." 

Another thing that came into my mind is do I ready to meet HIM yet? We always think that we still have plenty of time until we meet HIM. So, we just slacking and not alert about the time. But we will never know the time. Only God knows the time. 

This sharing let me make a reflection and ponder about my life. I want to be His good disciple. And one day when I see HIM, I will run into HIS arm like a child. The child that He proud of!   

My Dream

Yesterday (I am not sure it is yesterday or this morning bcoz I've been stay awake for 2 nights ),

was my first time to think about giving up on psychology.

It is been almost 7 years I dreaming about psychology 

and now I am finally and officially a psychology student 

This is the beginning of my dream

The beginning that I prayed for years 

but in the 5th week of my first semester, I am already think to give up?

I was thinking if I don't choose psychology 

Maybe now I am carrying a backpack and ridding on the wind of freedom

traveling around the world

see, touch, listen, taste and feel things that I never try before

Maybe my notebooks will be filled by beautiful stories and beautiful names

and I start dreaming those stories will someday being published  

and definitely the story in my diary will totally different from now

and I will meet different people 

Be a world traveler Be a writer Be a counselor 

Those are my dreams

Maybe I never tell anyone about my dream to become a writer before

it is because I am not sure will I be one in the future 

But, yes. I love stories and I love writing 

I never give up my dream on writing when I chose to study psychology so I can be a counselor in the future,

I am just holding it and waiting for God to open a door for me 

and I am sure HE will 

Wondering if I like writing so much, why I chose psychology for my degree?

Actually I am not obsess about psychology and sometimes those theories seem funny to me.

But I do like psychology and I embrace psychology

I am pretty sure the path I am taking now has God's purpose in it

I decided to become a counselor when I was 13

my initial thinking was I want to help those people who has problem in their life

and after that, I realized that this dream is given by God

God has His purpose in my life

For so many years, I prayed for my dream come true 

I pray that God use me for His kingdom. 

And now, I am standing right at the starting point

There is no way that I will regret 

and I would never turn back

Although this semester is tough for me, 

the assignments stressed me 

when I saw all my classmate are dealing good with it and I can't

I felt sad, my confidence and faith is defeated.

I asked God, why it is so difficult? Y You arrange these obstacles for me?

and the answer I get is 

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.

And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.

But when you are tempted,He will also provide a way out

so that you can stand up under it"  (1 CORINTHIANS 10:13)

God loves me, always has, always will

So, I should not be afraid!

My dream is not about me. It is all about Jesus Christ

I want to use my whole life to glorify HIM!

I am sure I will be able to finish my psychology degree and even master because God is walking with me.