Obstacles

I lost my patience in everything 
I dont even enjoy my sem break
My heart is like hanging at the half
I am anxious
I am worrying about my result 
Why my result haven't came out yet?
Sometimes, 
I will doubt 
Is it the right choice I chose to change college?
Is it God's plan to put me in HELP?
If I am doing what God wants me to do, 
why I am facing all these things?
All these obstacles made me feel tired 
Or it is my problem?
I am amplifying the things that I am facing?
I dont like complain.
I dont like nagging around
I dont like get angry easily 
So I need to learn to wait patiently 
I need to learn to enjoy the process 
I am so eager to go to the result 
But God wants me to learn how to wait 
how to rely on HIM when I am anxious 
Fully rely on Him is the homework I need to learn 
So now, I need to stop complain, stop nagging and be peace 
Fully rely on HIM!
If I didn't being test, 
How will I know what is the level of my faith?
How will I know how much is my passion toward my dream? 
I do everything is just to glorify HIM!

依然。。。。是个耻

这篇是我在书里看到的一篇诗
里面的内容正是我的想法
人类。。。哼。。。真是个耻
人类自以为是
人类看不见自己需要救赎
人类把自己成为王
却不看那真正至高的王


依然。。。是个耻 @ 憨痴鱼鳞

我是一只蚂蚁
在一次出游
死里逃生
眼见
我的家园已被掩盖
同胞们，死在当中

我是一只小鸟
在空中飞翔
一次响炮
我停留在接近的一棵树枝上
看着人类们在 尘埃中追杀
那死亡游戏

我是一阵无形的风
心灵比人类自由
却周遭人类无畏的行为侵犯
在废气中漫游
在血腥中挥舞
插身于飞弹中

我是一颗孤儿之树
在野生中
一次一次的被人类杀害
却依然继续寻找生命
如今，三月里
我被连根拔起

我是一座建筑物
在人类手中繁荣
也在人类手中消失
我将永远记得
这一次的消失
是往后的历史

我是一颗没有感情的子弹
在人类发明中诞生
我并不晓得我存在的价值
直到一次意外
我在人类血管中穿梭
我并不想被发明成为颗子弹

我是人类
在国家发展下
被称为士兵
再一次的指使下
屠杀了我的同胞
我庆幸，我的名字被士兵取代

我是一国之君
金钱与名誉是我的生命
战争中，我以胜利
十年后，我下土
在人间与地狱中
不曾被遗忘，我的恶
因为 我
依然。。。依然。。。是个耻   

from  少年《作文练习簿》

Hardship

Things are so hard on me recently
Friends, family, relationship with God, the war in my mind
My heart is weary
I am burn-out 
I felt everyone is taking me for granted
It is not easy for me to love everyone of you
It takes my time, my heart 
I will be tired too
I am only a human 
It is like I am the one who pay the effort to maintain our relationships
I am the one who concern, who give encouragements
I am not trying to say I am a great person
I am the only person that paying out 
I just want to say I need encouragements from you
All I want is just simple encouragements
Not gorgeous praise and admired eyes 
I just want to know you care about our relationships
I just want to know my efforts are not wasted 

I am not a good child 
I always do something that break Lord's heart 
I am not perfect 
I am a sinner 
This is why I need Him
I was angry to God about my hardship 
I am asking Him why
but today, He has spoken to me by Our Daily Bread.
 2 Corinthians 1:8-9
" We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead."
God didnt promise we will never have hardship after we believe in Him
but He promises us He will protect us and comfort us when we are in the hardship.
He will give us strength and wisdom to overcome 
I am so blessed to have Him in my life 
I love You my Father in heaven

thank you my  friend
Thanks for you encouragements
嗯，我的屋子很大间
而且我要更努力把它变到更大更大间
I am sure that God proud of you!


 

消逝

一直以来很珍惜的友情消逝了，
你会给与怎样的反应？
我。停在原地。反应不过来。
然后才发现心已经不想留了
一度责怪自己
但是这种感觉就好像一对相爱的恋人突然不爱了
我总是觉得“突然不爱”是一个很不负责任的借口
但是原来“突然不爱”只是用来简化一切一切的失望与伤心
其实那感觉不会变
变的是人
我不知道在这段友情里
我有没有变
但是我感觉你变了
但是大家都说你本来就是这样
是我不了解你
我不知道
我只知道我付出了
我包容了
对不起
我没有心继续下去了
俗话说：“一个巴掌是拍不响的”
我很努力，很努力，很努力
听见的只是我的手掌和风摩擦的声音
很多次，
努力换来心疼的眼泪
这次我没有觉得自己是笨蛋
因为当时的你真的是很值得让我去努力的朋友
很值得让我义无反顾
我还是很爱你这个朋友
很爱很爱
只是没有办法继续爱下去
只能停留在当时的你了
如果有一天
你突然问为什么我们突然不联络了
我当时会流泪还是会一笑而过？
谢谢你这一年来的陪伴

懂得啊柯的人不多了
庆幸的是还有几个互相守候的
谢谢你们

THX Awards

1st of April is April fool 
but for Christian, it is Palm Sunday 
What is Palm Sunday? 
Palm Sunday is a Christian moveable feast that falls on Sunday before Easter
On 1st of April, 
our church had a THX Award (combine service) @ Taylor's Lake Side Campus
THX Award is an event that our church 
Huh?! THX Award? What is that?????

'The THX! Awards recognizes everyone who had a hand in serving and playing a part in a great year for Eaglepoint. We’ve stuck together and fought tooth and nail to make God’s name famous in our nation!  And we want you to know that your contributions have not fallen on deaf ears – God is pleased with us! Let’s rejoice together in all that we’ve accomplished in the year 2011!'

And there I go~

I got a prize!!!!

Yeah! A cup! 

Although it is a small gift 

 I felt really happy and this means a lot to me

This is an encouragement from God and church

It motivated me to continue serving 

 No matter where God wants me to go, I will go!

For HIS will, not mine.

Oppps~ It is written there "Karen Gan: 永远满满奖"

What a cute cup! My prize^^

Kiki and I "Grow in God together"